Hello my lovelies! It’s been a busy week. I talked to a group of women about GBB. It was a stressful bit of personal growth. I’ve been working on things for printers and learning a lot. And I have been identifying the reasons for my recent funk.
You guys. You know I am a wuss about large groups of people. To help a fellow GB out I went along to the Womens Development Circle at the Wellington office of CA ANZ to talk about what we do at Good Bitches Baking. They’re lady accountants. And were amazingly lovely. I was super nervous. And I managed to put down the wrong date on my calendar so it was a day earlier than I thought. Hopeless. I’m glad I did it. The world didn’t end. It probably wasn’t the best talk they’ve ever listened to. But hopefully I managed to spread the good word. And it made me a bit braver.
We are putting together a calendar for GBB as well. Which means preparing files for the printer. Because I work exclusively for web I had no idea that working for print has so many foibles and different requirements. I love to learn about how things work and how what I do fit’s in with other people’s work. So it was great to learn (with a lot of help from a very patient Bitch) more about how to get things together. It will be useful for my own stuff too if I ever need to get things printed. I might even get to go to the printer and take a tour and learn how everything works! Super exciting.
I have talked recently about having a little battle with depression. While it is partly my brain not working at it’s best there are always lots of things that can impact on things. I’ve been in a bit of a funk for a little while now. There’s normal end of winter stuff. Being slack with exercise and diet. But I have also reached the end of my first year out of the office. I set a year as a test period to see if I could make a life like this work. And now here we are. It does work. It’s not perfect. It barely breaks even at the moment. But it’s doable. And rewarding. And awesome. So I kinda achieved my goal for the year. I never really thought about it. I’m always hard on myself for not doing more, achieving more, being more. But I lost sight of what my overall goal was in the first place. I’m not getting the external feedback of a workplace so I have to make sure I give myself credit as well as criticism. I have also drifted to a place where I don’t have firm goals for next year. Which is part of why I’m feeling a bit out of sorts. I don’t have a clear place to head to. I need to spend time setting out what I want 2018 to look like and how I’m going to get there. And also take some time to appreciate where I’m at. Now that I’m over my initial fears I love teaching classes. Bread is where it’s at for me at the moment. I love all baking and food but I’ve found a real passion for bread. I’ve learnt a ton over the past year and know I’m good at this. It’s a good place to start.
Peace and loaf. Look after each other.