Hello my lovelies! It was my birthday this week. A time to reflect on everything that’s happened in the past year. Eat some cheesecake for breakfast. Apply for a job. Start meeting designers. And spend some time relaxing in low-key ways.
The last 12 months feels like it’s flown by. I could not have imagined at my last birthday where I would be now. I haven’t really taken any time to think about it but so much has happened. I get very stuck in a “getting by” mindset that I churn through tasks without reflecting and appreciating where I am now. It’s been a scary and exciting journey so far. I’ve learned a lot about myself and the things I need day-to-day. I have been forgetting to enjoy myself. I spend so much time doing things I know I love to do. But my brain is fighting me. I have strongly embedded thinking patterns that lead me to constantly find things to worry about. They’re distracting as hell. Anxiety can be a real pain. Working on breaking these patterns is a birthday goal.
Continuing the 2017 tradition of non-traditional birthday cakes, mine was a Strawberry + Lemon Cheesecake. Simple cheesecake swirled with lemon curd and last week’s strawberry jam. For breakfast. I spent my day relaxing. I slept in. I went for a walk up a hill. I played video games. We also had a delicious meal at Field & Green. A day well spent. I also went on a bonus birthday shopping trip to Kmart. There isn’t one in the central city and without a car trashy shopping trips rely on a friend. Bargains are so soothing.
One of the background stresses of my search for a new way of life is money. It feels like I’m on a timer because the money I set aside will only last so long. To put my mind at rest and give me more freedom, I am turning attention to part-time work. I applied for a job I would love with my favourite Good Bitches. If it doesn’t work out I will look further for some contract work to keep the good ship Winsome on an even keel.
I met with my first designer this week. The Winsome Baker needs a cohesive brand identity. While I know mostly what I want, professional expertise will bring it together fabulously. I’m making sure to shop around as it’s a bit of an investment. It will be an exciting process to work through once we get started.
Enjoy yourself. Indulge a bit. Look after each other.
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Happy Birthday, lovely lady! ššš Wonderful post. I’ve found on the long journey to emotional- and life-wellbeing, it’s so encouraging to be able to stop along the way and reflect on where you’ve come from and where you’re going. It’s a reminder that the journey is actually going somewhere and that it’s _so_ worth travelling!! Thank you for sharing your reflections. š I can completely relate to the money running out! My friends ludicrously generously gave me an extra month’s worth of money, just to give me a little extra time. Part-time work sounds like a great idea. … Im looking forward to hearing how it all goes during this next year.
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Thanks miss! It’s easy to forget that learning is actually a end in itself š
Happy happy birthday week!! I hope you had a great week. The cheesecake sounds like the perfect cake. Love the reflections and more of us need to take time to reflect where we have been and where we are going. As the branding of the blog, let me know if you have any questions or need help with searching.
Thanks Zainab! It was the best š I have fairly strong opinions about what I want so hopefully will find someone around here who is good to work with!
Happy birthday and thanks for the honest reflections. Birthdays are part of the journey š
Thanks!